Monday, 9 November 2020

SCORPIO SZN


When I wrote this post initially, it had a dark tone to it. Then while praying Nafl, I had an epiphany!

Don’t get me wrong, in the first post, I explicitly stated my gratitude; especially, where I find myself now. However, during my Nafl prayers, I realised that, yes, I may state gratitude, but do I internalise how good I have it? No matter how small the good may feel in the pool of negativity that has shrouded my life (I think?!), it is still some form of good!

Turning thirty is really doing a number on me… After all, being the firstborn of my parents comes with its responsibilities, but the first-born daughter, comes with extra expectations, which have been drummed into my ears a million times!

Marriage!

If you are from an African home, you’d understand what I mean.

But like I tell my mother, if marriage has been written in my Qadr (destiny), it will happen. If it is not, then she has to learn to live with the notion that I’m never getting married. My best friend keeps asking how I’m still alive after telling her this.

This post is for me to lift me up. To show me that no matter how dark some days may be, and feel; no matter the mental stress I have to handle on a daily basis, the fact that I survived means I’m meant to be here; that everything is going to be fine, and thus I should be proud of everything I’ve achieved. However minute!

See, I’m not someone who celebrates her wins (the only time I allowed myself to truly dwell on a big win was the day I defended my Masters' dissertation, and passed! I still think of that day), I’m always on to the next thing. I have a fear of being in the moment. Most of the time, I feel like I don’t deserve nice things. I have major imposter syndrome. I always have to check myself, and mentally talk me out of having an anxiety attack every time something good happens to me, or I do something incredible.

First off, I work in the private sector with a non-governmental organisation. I’m a project officer in charge of two districts. When I applied for this job, I’d never worked in an NGO before, I didn’t have the experience. However, the director of the organisation gave me a chance because he believed in me and my capabilities. It doesn’t hurt that he, at the moment, is a Ph.D. candidate in the same department as I was, when I was doing my Masters’ program, and he’d sat in for a number of my presentations. I guess he was impressed. However, when I got the call that I got the job, I doubted myself. I mean for good reason- no experience- but like I said, my director saw something in me. I didn’t celebrate that win. I didn’t know how.

When I finished my undergraduate degree, I got a job to work at a radio station, after my national service. I hunted for a job for months before I got the radio gig. I remember a friend of mine asking why no one in my family is helping me get a job, I had family members with ‘connection’. One even helped him get into the military academy. Today he is a captain in the army. I got the radio gig because the manager of the station liked how I speak…lol. He said I had a radio voice! Ha-ha. It didn’t hurt that I write as well. He gave me the job as an intern. I would sit in with the full-time presenters of the station, give my opinion, do the entertainment news, and write for the station’s website. After two or three months, I was given a slot on Sundays to play gospel music, and country music from 7am to 12pm. Although the pay wasn’t regular, it was a job that I had gone out to get for myself. However, I didn’t celebrate this win too.

I was at the station for almost a year, until an incident happened that made me feel unsafe; due to how the management of that station handled it. But that is for another day.

I got a teaching job at a private senior high school as an English teacher. Mind you, the only teaching experience I had at this point was from my national service time. The owner of the school played football with my dad when they were young, so he offered me a job at his school. I took it. I learnt a lot from teaching there. It was here that discovered my love for teaching higher-level institutions. It was also here that I knew I wanted to do a Ph.D., so I applied for and got admission to start a Masters' program.

See, in all the six years after my national service, there’s never been a time where I’d gone a whole year without a job, and when I internalise that, I am super grateful. Regardless of whether I feel that I deserved those opportunities to gain experience, or not, I am grateful.

Also, among all these jobs, my favourite was working at the radio station. I felt my utmost self during that period.

So, as I enter my thirties’, I know the marriage song will continue to be sung, but marriage isn’t my entire being. It is important for a Muslim to be married, yes, but like I said, if it wasn’t meant to be, it won’t.

That said, I’m just going to ride the waves. I’m getting back into my writing groove; I’m going to remember to enjoy what I worked hard for. I’m going to celebrate the little wins, and be conscious of the fact that everything I have, I worked hard for. I earned.

Happy birthday to me!

Friday, 1 January 2016

PHOTOS: Tamale Connect X'mas Soccer Fiesta

Winners of Tamale X'mas Soccer Fiesta Top Links FC

The Tamale Connect X'mas Soccer Fiesta came and went, and I must say it was a whirlwind of excitement and loads of fun at the Nobisco School field on that day. Yours truly sure was there, didn't take part in any of the activities; though in my head, I won all the games, especially the Scrabble..lol.
Anyway, for those of you who laid on your beds in your various homes, blaming the Harmattan for your inability to make it to the event, here are some pictures for your eyes. Feast on 'em!
 Tigo was there!


















If you missed this event, you sure didn't end 2015 right.

Have blessed 2016, loves!

xo

Thursday, 17 December 2015

It's Back!!! The Tamale Connect Soccer Fiesta- X'mas Edition.

On the 26th of December at the Nobisco football field, the second edition for the year 2015 of the Tamale Connect powered Soccer fiesta games would be coming up to round of the year in a beautiful way. As with other Soccer Fiesta events, the normal line up of Football, FIFA, Scrabble and major trash talking from all the teams gunning for the trophy is a constant, but this month's games will also include Ampe, Lime race, Sack race, Oware, and the squad with the most vibrant cheerleading  team. So team captains better get their ladies ready.




I will be there, will you?


xo

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

GMB Winner, Baci To Represent Ghana At Top Model Of The World Pagent In China



The 2014 winner of the Ghana Most Beautiful pageant, Bentie Abigail Baciara, has called for the support of Ghanaians as she represents the country at the 22nd edition of the Top Model of the World Pageant, in Qingdao, China.
Baci who leaves Ghana on Wednesday, August 19 told Showbiz she was going to represent Ghana and showcase to the rest of the world what the country has to offer.

She added that she was well prepared in terms of grooming, thanks to her time spent with at the Ghana’s Most Beautiful pageant and as a result she was hopeful of replicating her success by annexing the Top Model of the World pageant crown.

“At the Ghana’s Most Beautiful pageant, I lived under the same roof with nine ladies for three months but this would only be for three weeks so I doubt if it would be difficult.

“ I would be meeting other ladies from all across the world and I am hoping the experience I gained would be enough to help me win the crown. “ Also, I believe my unique grasp of the Ghanaian culture, will set me apart from the other contestants who would be at the event.

“It’s not just about beauty or height but also the inner beauty within which lies the reflection of the African woman in me. I know my culture and I am hoping to teach the rest of the world a lot more about Ghana and possibly change perceptions about her.

“ Thus, I am not at the pageant to represent just myself but also to promote the image of Ghana worldwide and I ask for the support and prayers of Ghanaians to aid me in the competition.

“I need everyone to support me in prayers and although the winners are not exclusively decided via voting, there might come a time where we would need votes online and I would like to ask for the support of Ghanaians during that period”, she added.

According to Baci, she hopes to establish potential links with prospective sponsors who might come on board to aid with some developmental projects she has been undertaking in some deprived areas across the country.

Baci, recently launched her foundation christened the Malol-Lol Ghana Foundation, which aims at promoting primary education in some deprived communities across the country.

She revealed that since the launch of the foundation, she has donated 10,000 customised exercise books to brilliant but needy students in five districts in the Upper West Region as well as provided solar panels to some communities in need of electricity.


Well done, Baci!

xo

Story culled from Ghanaweb.com